A privilege beyond all others

"The most selfless thing a perfect being who is perfectly loving could do would be to create other beings to enjoy himself "*

One of my biggest struggles i had when I was pokin at Christianity was a God whose purpose was to glorify himself, seemed rather selfish to me. It still baffled me when I became a Christian. It wasn't until a few days ago when I read that quote, that it finally made sense. and it went beyond just making sense to humility.

Worship is the ultimate privilege. It is god's ultimate gift. It is the reason for gods ultimate sacrifice. The reason my beloved lord had to die on that cross was so that we could again fully experience the beauty of god. So that we could worship.

My plea to all of gods children is to never take worship for granted. It is so much more than I ever have, and ever will understand. Those of us who have the joy of getting up on stage every week and helping the body of Christ connect with the creator are taking an active role in pursuing gods greatest gift, his ultimate purpose for man. To share in the presence of complete and joy.


*-John MacMurray, Donald Miller

Everything Changes

I Just started at mobap and now i've began my standard "freaking out at change" state. I was interneting and found some people who were not to happy with mobap. More looking, more worrying and now I'm afraid i chose the wrong school. I don't know anyone there to help me either. I just hope i didn't choose the wrong school to stay safe here in St. Louis.

Then of course there the fear i'm not good enough. Let's be honest, I'm not a choir boy and only know enough guitar to play simple worship songs. I just love doing it, but that don't pay the bills.

What it comes down to is that on my first day I was ecstatic and now 2 days later i'm just not happy, and i don't know why. Contentment is my idol and i lost it somewhere.